3 months old Batrisya Amani

So fast time flies... Batrisya is already 3 months old! Do i miss being pregnant? Yes I am.. I miss having a big belly which i can rub every time i walk, I miss all the strong kick, turning and tossing from inside my tummy!! I miss eating all i want and all that i can because i dun have to be worry how bulging my tummy gonna be.
Caring and playing with my lovely Batrisya every single days is the most precious moment i ever had.. She makes me laugh, smile every single time i look at her face.. Now she already start cooing... she will laugh out loud every time we joke with her, she will start nagging when we make fun of her.. she simply understand what we did to her...
I remember Nagging at her for something that she didn't do, just because i only have her to nag to at that point.. and you know what? she scolded me for nagging and scolding her for no reason... How i know when she scold, laugh, nag and talk? it just take some practices and some learning in decoding baby talk and cries... Really, when u become a mummy, u understand what i mean.. It is nice right!!!
Now, she already start turning and tossing to her side and she is learning to sleep on her own.. I simply cant wait what will she start doing next...

2nd Month!

Fuyoo... lama la sungguh tak blog!..
da berlapok agaknyer blog aku nie,
Biasalah kan da jadi mak.. busy habisssss!

So nearly 2 months da jadi mak mak, so far im having fun with it..
of coz la kadang kadang stress jugak, macam nak meletop kpala nie... tapi makin lama da okie..

Every single day is a learning process..
i learn new things about Batrisya..
I dont deny its a lil bit frustrating at first, coz for sure i dont understand what she's trying to tell me, because the only way she communicate is by crying.. so lagilah pecah kpala dan telinga aku..
Sabar punya sabar beb!!!!
kadang kadang kat toilet tngh mandi jerit jerit sndiri... bukan aper, frust beb!!!

Memanglah normal bab tak cukup tidor, penat,takder time nak makan, atau nak ge toilet pun kadang2 kena delay sebab kena dukung dia kalau tak dia nangis abeh macam mana? tapi tu semua bagi aku perkara kecik. Apa yang aku frust kan yelah, aku tak paham what she is trying to xplain to me.. sometimes i just wish i that i also can communicate to her by crying...
and really the jerit in the toilet really helps sometimes.. kalau tak post natal blues agaknyer aku, hehe...

So how do i overcome it? simple, i did a lot of reading... read and read about baby character! really helps alot.. different baby have different needs you just need to read, and learn about your baby and apply your own technique into it... and Wa..la.... it works!! kalau tak, manalah aku boleh blog mengadap laptop selama 4 jam tanpa henti kan!

Another thing i did is to window shopping! i just have to find some time for myself! when i am stress-free i can take care of batrisya Amani more better and happier!

And i feel so much satisfied when she's happy! and when she sleep soundly.. like now, i think i hear she snore... hahaha...

You know, she will cry her lungs out the first few times i bath her, reason... the water is not warm enough for her, after days and days of experiment, finally i got it right! and she's not crying anymore!
next she doesn't like to be naked when i strip her to clean her up!! first few times i was so blur and panic, haiz.. knaper la budak nie menangis macam nak rak.. after experimenting again and again, rupanya budak nie tak suka kena bogel.. nak kena tutup dengan tuala.. mak oi!! perempuan melayu terakhir la anak aku nie!.

Next was her colic issue... OMG! that one.. 'WE' suffer every night and day seh!! Dia "melalak & Menjerit!!!" urut perut tak jalan... burp kan betul betul pun tak jalan... sampai lah kita jumpa "Detinox anti colic for baby" recomemded by the polyclinic, fuyoo!! miracle happen.. we can get our sleep back!

Lepas tu bab " knapa anak aku tak berak? nak masuk 4 hari dah!" yes!! i was so worried, i scared that she was constipated or wat.. i gave her plain water.. urut perut.. betis dia..la, macam macam la... finally on day 5, she gave us a big pack of present!!! her diaper is soooo full of POO till it came out from her diaper! lucky it was the daddy shift that time.. Hahahaa...
So daddy cleaned her up while i was laughing my ass looking at his reaction!
Doc say its normal, because her bowels is setting to the normal movement... so she may not poo every day as like the first month where she poo 4 times a day. Now she poo once a day only...
So Chill k....

it was so nice looking her grow each day, dulu baju yang super besar, da muat pakai da sekarang..
Ader yang da tak muat pun! hahah...
Hey Batrisya amani, chill k... dont grow too fast, its nice to see you being a baby. ;)
Macam nak cubit cubit pipi you yang tembam tu!

my wonderful journey

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Sitting on the sofa, with Batrisya Amani sleeping soundly beside me after her feeding make me feel so blessed! I feel so blessed and thankful to Allah for giving me the chance to experience a wonderful feeling and moment being a MOTHER.

10 months ago, a doctor told me the chance of me getting pregnant and having a baby is very very low... but today, alhamdulilah berkat Doa, faith and patience in Allah, i can finally carry a baby that i can call my own.

For the whole 38 weeks of pregnancy has been a wonderful journey to me.
So much happy, funny moments and to top with a lil bit of pain and back cramps.
looking back, i think i wont be able to go thru it alone.
there has been so much support from Hubby that shower me with great love,
Mother in law that help me with wedding service, bro in law that always come up with funny jokes so that i can laugh all time to forget all the cramps and pains and not forgetting sis in law and husband who never stop sharing and advising me with all the positive and helpful advise during pregnancy. Syukur Alhamdulilah.

One thing that i learn during my 38 weeks pregnancy is to be POSITIVE.
when i am positive, i will be happy and i will enjoy every single moments when im carrying my precious in my tummy.

12 days ago, i still remember waking up from an early morning football match, wash up and getting ready to KKH. I have a strong feeling that i will be delivering my daughter any time that week, so i have set my mind that i might be warded that day. so i say goodbye to my house and say that i will be leaving today as a couple but i will be back as a family.

Journey to KKH was smooth, in fact we reached 20 mins early for our AMC check up.
After that i have to go for GTC for solid 30 mins. I dun think too much that time, i can still play TETRIS at my iphone.
Next will be my appointment with Doc Wong, my gynea, ( A very GOOD Gynea)
Doc Wong take a few minutes to read all the report from GTC and AMC,
He said that my water bag level is really low, he asked if i realized that my water bag is leaking.
I told him i am not sure but im aware that last 2 days water kept coming out but i thought it just a normal discharge. He said that high chance my water bag has been leaking for almost 48 hours and it can be very dangerous to baby.
Next he asked me to lie on the bed so he can checked how much i have been dilating.
So far i only dilated not more than 2cm, after the check the next thing he did was to call the delivery suite to check if there's a vacant bed for me.
He told us that i have to deliver the baby by that day, i have to get myself induced to force my cervix to open, if i cant do normal birth, it have to be Cesarean.. i cant wait for my EDD that is on 18th january, we have to get the baby out by that night. I just follow suit and agree with his decision.

it was 11.15am i was lying on the bed asking the nurse if i can have something to bite beacuse i didnt eat or drink anything yet, but unfortunately the nurse say they have to start with the drip, so i cannot eat or drink. Looks like i have to fast for dont know how long...
a while later start of the drip and inducement...
less than hour i start to feel all cramps and tights all over my tummy, which nurse say is the contraction to force the water bag to burst and cervix to open, Now i know how menses cramps feels like, alhamdulilah i didnt go thru that pain during my monthly menses. consider my first time ever feeling contractions.

6 hours later of enduring pains and lots of PAINS, i finally give up!!!
Hubby was sleeping soundly on the couch not more than 1 metre away from me yet he didnt wake up when i call him, or should i say 'shout' at him.. I end up have to call him on his hp just to wake him up! . i told hubby, i need the epidural, i cant endure the cramps already. i cant rest and recharge my energy for the big event later. The main thing is i cant breath properly which is not good, because baby need oxygen from us, if i cant inhale properly, my daughter will also suffer.

Epidural - This particular pain killer really helps alot!. The nurse have to insert a plastic tube into your spine to flow the pain killer, where you will feel numb from waist to toe. Really you cant feel your own feet anymore, so goodbye Pains for a moment!
After inserting the epidural, i managed to rest for few hours to recharged my energy.

Every single hours Nurse and my gynae will check how much i have been dilating. it takes me 8 hours to dilate from 2 to 5 cm, but it take less than 3 hours for me to dilated to 10cm. By then it was near 11pm and my set of epidural have finish. Nurse says that i have to endure the pain a bit because i have to feel the pain and urge so i know when my baby want to come out.
By then only Allah knows how much pain and im not sure how i manage to endure all the pains. Masya Allah!

By near midnight, nurses all ready and set with all the delivery apparatus and they told me that my gynae is on the way from home. ( As he did informed me earlier that he go home and rest first and will come back for the delivery. Better that way so he can focus!)

by 12.10am, Nurse teach me the proper way to push. Honestly, i got it all wrong the first few tries, i never knew how it felt to be constipated and have to " teran'' like you never pass motion for a year!. Even hubby teach me how to 'teran' hahaha!...
never in my life thinking that hubby have to teach me that!!.

Few minutes later Doc Wong came in with his white polo T and Black Bermudas. hahaha....
so relax la my gynae, the first thing he did was to check if im able to go thru normal labor.
He told me that since i really want to go for normal delivery, he will give me a chance to PUSH.
If he see its going to be a complications he will have to do Cesarean.
At that point i told him, "No, I want normal delivery! I will try, i know i can do it!"
I told myself to focus and Listen to every useful instruction given by the doctor and nurse. I have to Listen and trust their Judgment.

Hubby was reciting Doa and words of encouragement to my ears all along, it was so heart warming.. even he have to encounter back pains because of his awkward position.
I am more encouraged when my doc and nurses encouraged me with all moral support that they can ever give!! ( i can say that i have a good group of doc and nurse that Allah can ever arranged for my delivery, Alhamdulilah)

A while or so, i start to feel the urge to push, i can feel that my baby is just down there...
Doc start giving instruction to push on his count... Push as much as i can!
really i wonder how my face look like when i push that much, hubby say my face turns so red.. so red he never see me like that before...
On Doc count I push and breath all my might!!
Doc and nurse was like " 123 PUSh....Push....Push...Push.!!!push.!!!push.!!!push!!!!! yes good job!!
one more time, take a deep breath and 123 Push..Push..Push..Push..."
it was funny thinking back their reaction but that really happen..
Suddenly i can feel like a big round thing came out from my below,
Hubby says, " its the head, yes you can do it, one final push only!"
and one final push, suddenly i feel like a whole big thing came out and the next thing i say was
" aaarrgghhhhh.... oh my goodness, i cant believe it! can i eat or drink something now? i am soo hungry and thirsty!!!" hahaha ( i cant believe i say that!)
Doc Wong was laughing at me and accompanied by the first time ever, the voice of my lovely daughter and the joy from hubby face.

It is so wonderful for a while, until doc have to do some stitching below because doc have to cut a bit due to big baby that i have to push.
and of course i can feel all the stitching process, but it wasn't as bad as the delivery process lah.
I had laughing gas for that, and i realised that i am like a drunk women! hahaha... not sure what came out from my mouth, i just felt so sleepy. The only thing i remember is when Doc wong ask me to stay still so he can do the stitching properly. He kept saying " i know its easier say than done but im sorry if its painful for you.. so sorry you have to bear the pain,but you did good."

After Doc wong done with all the process he congratulate both of us and ask me to rest as he will see me in e morning in my ward. never the less i thank doc wong for giving me all the encouragement and taking care of me thru out my pregnancy. he replied me with a simple smile and say: no problem, its my joh!.

at that point hubby was so busy taking picture of our lovely daughter and i can see the joy n happiness in his face being a daddy!
The next best thing is when i hold Batrisya Amani for the first time ever! whispering at her ears
"finally, mama can see your face. i love you darling"

I have to say that i really enjoy my 38weeks of pregnancy and i do enjoy my 13 hours of delivery.
it is so wonderful and memorable till it makes you forget all the pain during labor.
As i say before, for the people you love, its all worth it!!

signing off,
A wife and mama to 2 wonderful people i call Hubby and daughter!

The Wonderful Journey of Batrisya Amani!

Hello everyone...Moghni here..

As promise, I'll be the one sharing wif u guys the moments which will be remembered for a long long time... It's quite lengthy(like police report) hehe.. but I hope u guys enjoy the story ya.. So here goes...

We started off on the 05/01/2011 (Wed) where this is considered the last day of Dyra's check up with her gynae, Doc Wong at KKH...

9 am - Scanning of growth & water bag level at Level 2, ADC.

9.30 am - GTC (Its for the baby heartbeat)..I have to wait for my darling a solid 30 mins outside the room..and of course, went to short nap mode..

10.10 am - Met up with our Doc and he told us the 'shocking' news... that wifey's water bag is lower than expected & bcoz of dat, he advised not to waste any time and to proceed wif the inducement procedure. And told us to wait for the porter to send us to the delivery suite. At that time, I wasn't dat ready as my mind was thinking that it will be on a Friday (7th Jan) cos I prefer my daughter to be born on my fav no. 7.. hahaha... so naughty ah me.. But as always, after hearing the news, I just make myself cool and not be panicked at this crucial time.. So off we go to the delivery suite...

11 am - Reaching the delivery suite, went to room no 29 and 15 mins later, wifey kena the dripping and dat was the start of the induce tingy.. I haf to ROC (Relax one corner) at the couch provided but after an hour or so, already felt restless... kwang3.. duno wat to do.. After dat, I went to do the paper work and the payment while wifey relaxing inside.

5 pm - After enduring pains and lots of pains for almost 6 hours, wifey alerted me, (I was taking nap again) that she badly need the special medicine (the Epidural).. Really cant bear to see her suffering.. 2 nurses came to the rescue while I waited outside.. Is really the 1st time I saw my wife in pain..for the past 9 months she never show any signs like this before.. so kanchong man..

10.30 pm - After waiting & waiting, one nurse came inside and check her below, and said the cervic had opened 10 cm.. After hearing dat, I thought she gonna deliver in a few minutes time but it wasn't as easy as I thought.. haha.. must wait for the baby head to be near the opening area.. so how to do dat? The nurse told my wife to practice the 2 methods of pushing (normal and sideways).. And so we started to practice, including me as I need to gif her the moral support & encouragement during this crucial time..

06/01/2011 - New Day (Thurs)

12. 10 am - While practising 'pushing', our Doc Wong came.. in his polo t-shirt & bermudas.. hehe.. so cute seh.. He was calm & compose and when he started to wear his apron, it was the beginning of the much awaited moment.. the delivery..

12. 20 am onwards - Wifey was in a 'crunches' position (it was the preferred & best position), I was at her rite side holding her head and whispering prayers in her rite ear & 04 staff including Doc was @ the front waiting & giving as the much moral support we needed.. Doc gave the call, '1,2,3 push..1,2,3 push...' and the pace was getting faster & faster until my wife's head turn red & I just did my best in calming her and follow Doc's momentum where eventually I saw a glimpse of the baby's head and I told wifey to give 1 big final push as she's almost there & true enough....

12.41 am - The baby just 'popped' out like dat and the stomach automatically become flat.. I was really sweating and also suffered minor backache due to my awkward position but it was really well worth the effort we put in.. After the baby 'pop' out, I thank Allah for the strength He had given us during the delivery and I really salute my wife for being able to go thru a normal delivery despite knowing that the baby was big in size, 1st time delivery and not forgetting that she has not taken her breakfast before coming to the KKH and enduring almost 13 hours before the moment... Really really salute my wife and I know she can do it cos she has this special talent that Allah gives her.. Her inner strength...





1.40 am onwards - Duty Doc checked our baby and infd that she has to be placed at the Special Care Nursery (SCN) while we went to the Ward 81 Bed 16. Felt so sad that my baby wasn't going to be at the same ward with us. But I told myself, its for the baby's own good health...And so, wifey went to the ward, baby went to SCN & me going back home for a short while and bathe myself at my comfort Paris hm around 6 am...

12 noon - Me & wifey visited our daughter @ the SCN and saw her..It was a really a wonderful feeling to see ur own flesh & blood being specially taken care of but the worst part was to hear that she has to stay for a max of 5 days...Wifey's heart sank & mine too but I didn't show it cos it wasn't an appropriate time to be very emotional..After hearing the sad news, I calmed wifey & gave her the moral support by giving positive feedbacks dat baby's gonna be fine & well taken care of by the KKH nurses/doctors...



07 to 09/01/2011 - (Fri to Sun),

6 - 8 pm (Daily) - Visited daughter and wifey tried to breast feed her and of course initially she felt abit awkward..so did I cos I felt quite 'strange' seeing wifey had to take out her boobs & gave it to my daughter... Normally she took out during 'special' time mah...hahaha....juz kidding eh.. But eventually, we are happy to see her health progressing and mama can produce lots of milk..but duno what brand only.. : )

10/01/2011 - (Mon)

1 pm onwards - As promised by the doc, today was going to be the last day of SCN...Mama Dyra was really looking forward to bring her beautiful princess home to Paris... Met up wif Duty Doc, she infd us that everything was fine except for her slow feeding..We were so happy & relieved to hear dat...especially Mama Dyra...

4.30 pm - Finally, we said final goodbye to SCN & the whole of KKH as it was really the best 'holiday' for the proud parents of Batrisya Amani!!!





Summary - Firstly, I would like to say a very big Thank You to Allah, who has fulfilled my main goal in life, a lovely family under Mohd Moghni 'Family Tree'..This is really what I have wished for since I was young and I eventually got it thru sheer hardwork...While others work hard in their career, I work hard in building up my own family.. I'm a bit unique person but this is what I really want to achieve & succeed in..

I'm also fortunate to have my supporting parents, my sis & bro in-law, & my own bro who have helped me throughout this beautiful journey..And not forgetting the ppl in my workplace who have made contribution in this journey..u know who u r alrite.. ; )

Lastly, hope u guys take this story as a stepping stone to have a happy family..Coz life is short man..Enjoy having a family cos its the best gift that u can ever get in your life!!!

Wanna know my next goals???

- Expanding the family (02 boys & 02 girls - very ambitious ya) before my wife reach 30 yrs old (Now she's 24)...

- Expanding wifey's business and to make it our own family business (Difficult but it can be done) & be our own Bosses (including me lah of course)...

Take care & Adios Amigos..........

Make Love Not War............

Yours Sincerely,

Daddy Moghni
15/01/2011 - Saturday

False Alarm??

last Night, We went to KKH,
And yes, its a false Alarm... ;p
You see, its better to be safe than sorry, especially for first time parent like us,
we just dont want to take any risk.
There are few things that im not sure and as much advise and experience people around us have told us, it will never be the same for any individual..

Last few days, water kept coming out, massive back pains..pains..pains. and contractions, but honestly i dont know what level of pain is a sign of giving birth.
I ask my mom and sis in law, they say diff people encounter diff experience, and its better to go and check since last check up i have been dilating 2cm.
and dilation varies for every people...

Last check my daughter already weight 3.4Kg.. Heavy weight like her daddy...
Gynae says, baby must come out before actual EDD, because if baby is too big, some complications might occur for both of us. And i might be going for cesarean which i dont want.
So i dont know if i should induce and let baby come out earlier..

Been discussing with hubby almost everyday..
i prefer the waiting game, but i also dont want to harm baby..
We will try our best to decide what best for all 3 of us. InsyaAllah.

Baby name

Time check!!
Left with few more days!
Every thing almost done and ready..
Most importantly, we have decided on our daughter name
Not like a last minute thing, we have decide on her name like way back once we know our baby gender.

Finding a name wasn't easy...
Sounds so easy, actual facts its not.
Hubby wanted a name that is unique and rare, so Aminah,Ain, Siti all kena strike out!
its a No No for Hubby.
He said that, since his and my name is so unique, our daughter should carry on with the legacy,
hmph... apa dah daddy moghni ni..

As for me, i dun really mind as long the name have a good Islamic meaning.
Do u know that, my name doesn't have any meaning? so its kinda meaningless you see..
i prefer to call my daughter everyday with her name that has a good meaning..
its like a Doa when i call her everyday.

So i search for names in almost every book, internet and my dad in law even borrow me his all time favorite baby names book.
oh yah, bro in law, Harris was so nice he come out with this name : Mohindra D/O Moghni!
Kurang asam betol! he said it suit our daughter, its a combination of both our names!
Of cos its a joke!!! Kelakar kaper...

my parents in law lagi cool, " aah..nama kan Monira bte mohd moghni!
moni+ Dyra= Monira!!"
Hahaha... of coz nama tu kena Strike out from e list!!!

So you see, we do have fun finding names for our daughter, even her granny, grandpa and uncle have fun finding her name..
How unique and creative dorang nie semua kan..kan..

main Thing,Till now no one knows our daughter name..
Its mean to be a surprise till the day itself!
Every time people are so eager to know what will we call our precious daughter..
The answer will be the same, " Surprise!!!

Soon... will be the day!

Another 7 days, we will be saying goodbye to 2010..
And Hello 2011!!!
And Hello my lil daughter!!
Mama and daddy cant wait to see your cute lil face!
We know its gonna be in the first week of January!
Doc says it and We have a strong feeling that it will be either 3rd or 4th of January!..
Bring it on! we are sooooo ready for you!!
macam real lah your parents nie, heh!

You know, i been dreaming about you like almost everyday!
i dream you have curly hair like your daddy! hahaha....
and of course dimples like me,
Mak oiiii!!! eggcited!eggcited!!!

Every single day i kept thinking what else that i need to prepare and buy for your arrival...
Yes, every single day.. its like a routine already,
You know, now your daddy have banned mama from buying your clothes!!!
Oh NO!!!!!... he says that, "Oi!!! anak kita baru satu in the making, Baju dah banyak macam 10 anak!"
Hahahhaha.... i just cant resist the temptation of visualizing how cute you will be when you wear 'this' and 'that'... Habisss lah....

And now days, mama been feeling all the mild contractions, and not sure why my mind have set that i will be in labor soon.. and my mind is like 'ready' for it...
does that happen to all pregnant mummies when their time is up and baby is popping out soon?

i must get my hospital bag ready tmrw.. in case! who knows kan?
macam mana lah agaknyer if your mama dah nak beranak and your daddy is at work and it takes a while for him to be home?
HAhahaha... Panic habizzz...
and i wonder my mum in law nyer panic reaction if i called her and say " Mak, i think its time baby nak kuar" mesti her reply will be like " Huh? Dyra ok? Dyra ok? Dyra ok? hahah, she must repeat 3 to 4 times before she ask me to relax while waiting for her son to rescue her daughter in law!" oh funny!

Btw, 2010, you have been a good year to me!
2011.. please be nice to us okay!!